I had always wondered what it would feel like. From today i will know…
Today was and will always be etched in my memories, not only because its my sister’s 40th birthday but because it is the day of my rebirth.
After several years, i ended up in an unplanned visit to the church and i believe somehow this was not a coincidence. The moment i saw a small church basket where people drop off their prayers or letters to God, i quickly went over there and wrote something too. So this is how what started off as a tour of the church ended in a spiritual and emotional conversation with the self and a letter to God.
I am a spiritual person, that also explains why i consider my transition to be a deeply spiritual process too. Off course no one is going to transport that paper to God, but just the process of writing on that paper was indeed all i needed. Today was just about a befitting day to have that conversation with God and being in the church made it even more special.
As i seat here, my heart is in the right place. My body , mind and spirit are insync. Slowly but surely i am starting to feel like a 35 year old weight is being lifted off my shoulders, and i can already feel the tension starting to dissipate too.
This is indeed the day that the Lord has made, and so the journey to the self continues. from FtM(iles) damn i m loving the person i am becoming..