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A few weeks ago i experienced something beautiful, after having gone through what seemed like a tough year, that was my turning point. I had just woken up but didn’t want to open my eyes or get out of bed. As i continued contemplating on whether to get out of bed or sleep a little bit more, i got lost in a peculiar sound vibrating through my pillow.
It was calming, rhythmic and very pronounced. That’s when i realised i had never actually taken time to listen to the sound of my heartbeat. It felt so good just lying there listening to that sound, suddenly everything didn’t matter anymore, everything else became still.
I am alive..
This experience made me realise that my heartbeat is everything to be grateful for. Sometimes we get so caught up in noise of the world where we are constantly complaining about everything, forgetting to appreciate the seemingly little things. In that moment, the powerful and beautiful sound of my heartbeat made me aware of my inner strength, the resilience to fight for survival even when it appears the dack is stacked against me, that is indeed a sign of victory.
I now know that whenever i am feeling down or overwhelmed by the weight of the world, i can always listen to the sound of my heart beating, a reminder that as long as i am still breathing, my story is not over, i must get up and push.
Yesterday i was clever so i wanted to change the world. Today i am wise so i am changing myself. Rumi
As i enter into the new year, if my experiences this year didn’t awaken something in me and if i didn’t learn something from my pain, then 2017 is merely going to be a change of calendar. I am not making any new year’s resolutions just to appear organised and focused. I am not going to overwhelm myself with philosophical sayings, say any spiritual verses to seem holy, or use any sophisticated software to show i am techsavvy. Instead, in 2017 i am committing to pushing myself a lil harder in everything i do ; to loving and smiling a little more and to cutting ties with the three thieves of joy which are worrying, comparing and complaining.
In a few hours we start a new year, just remember nobody plays this life with marked cards, sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. The difference lies in your attitude..